Responsibility.

Haven been able to blog because housemate has been hanging in my room daily.
I'm so sick of having to face the same problem again and again.

We've gone through this conversation for endless times. and the results always turn out the same.
I don't get why she has to bring it up every time someone gets sick at home ):

They've been with us for years. In fact 2 out of the 4 have been with me for half of my life!
How the fuck you suppose to think I can let them go easily?
If they were the problem we shouldn't even have had them from the beginning!

She keeps saying that she loves them just as much but i'm pretty sure it isn't as much as I love them.
They are family to me. You can't ask me to pick between the two.

I won't be able to make that decision ):

Every time she mentions this, I get tense up. and this tension won't subside till I know that the damn topic has come to an end.

This is why I don't get too committed to anyone or anything. It's too hard to let go.

I WANT TO GET OVER WITH THIS ASAP. FUCKING COME TO A CONCLUSION. FML

Review: Schwarzkopf Cosmic Blue Live Color XXL

Finally took the initiative to dye my hair and decided to try this brand.
As for now, i'm satisfied with the results. I just hope it last long :)

Visually it will look like black with a really deep dark blue tone. I could tell the difference between black and blue black. :)

The thing i like about this hair dye is the smell of the hair dye. there's a very pleasant smell! Not like the hair dye's i smell in the saloon every time i get my hair dyed. :)

The conditioner that came in the box is also really good! My hair is really soft and silky compared to before.



The blue will only shine under sunlight or with the correct camera settings on flash mode.
to be specific, its a blue hue setting on my camera :)

the normal setting wouldn't work at all. at least for my camera.

overall i'm happy with the results but its not my ideal blue. I hope it fades to my ideal blue though. xD

Hope

To the person that I respect.


When I was young, i remembered you saying that I was mature for my age.
I didn't dress nor act like a kid even though I was young.
At that point, I was proud. And I respected you because not much people saw that in me at that point.
You reassured my mom that I will become someone when I grow up. :)

And now that you've hit rock bottom, I hope you don't give up!
I hope you find a way out of that dark side!
I have once respected you and I still respect you~
We might not be close, but i've always respected you deep inside :)
Your family will always be there for you. I hope you wake up and make up for your mistakes!
Make your parents proud! Don't disappoint them! It hurts them even more if you continue being in the state you are right now. It's not too late to wake up and sort things out.

Just make sure u understand that your family will always be there for you.
Don't feel embarrassed to open up to the people who trust you!

Paris: As a Tourist

I've finally granted my own wish of travelling alone! :D
Yes, although it wasn't completely alone but I did most of the travelling myself!
I absolutely love the feeling of being able to do sightseeing alone! :D

When i'm with friends, I usually let them decide and i would just follow along, so when they decide to leave, i'll just leave.
But when i'm travelling alone its a whole different story! I had to do all the research! Yes, i'll admit, i did got lost around Paris. HAHAHAHAHA. But its normal. I couldn't ask anyone knowing most of them probably don't understand english. xD

The good thing about travelling alone is that you won't have to rush. I didn't have to rush taking pictures nor wait up for people. It was all about me. I was able to take as much time as i want in one spot. :D

I accidentally ran into this beautiful cathedral! Growing up watching Hunchback of Notre-Dame over and over again. This building meant a lot! It brought back lots of memories from the past! Whether it was a good or bad.

If i ever come back again, i might pay and go inside the cathedral. it looked amazing in the cartoon. at least that's what I remember... hahaha

As much as I love travelling with my friends, I LOVE travelling alone. :D

The Pont Des Art Love bridge didn't look as beautiful as I was expecting it to though.. Maybe my expectation was just too high. hahaha OR maybe its bcause i'm single. LMAO.

I mainly went to Lovre Pyramid because of the structure and then i realize everybody was trying to touch tips with the pointy end. It was hilarious watching everyone taking picture with the same pose. I literally stood there for 10 mins just to watch ppl trying to touch tips with the pointy end. xD

But tbh, the building surrounding the pyramid watch so much more interesting imo.

After passing by this, I realized FTISLAND came here an hour later, they had a selfie with the same building.. which is sad. I COULD HAVE MET THEM. but oh well, its fate.

My next goal as a fan is to run into them when i'm outside, instead of stalking them from the back door of a concert venue xD

Overall, I gained a lot from this Paris trip as a fan and as a normal person! :D

I'm so happy I had this chance. 2 of my life goals were fulfilled during this trip!

Paris: As A Primadonna

My first trip to Paris is definitely going to be a memorable one! I got to experience things I never thought I would! :)

The main reason for this trip wasn't to explore around Paris but was to attend FTHX in Paris! :D

Although i've been to concerts of FTISLAND. but this time it was different! In many ways! The atmosphere watching them live in another country is a whole new experience and different feeling than watching them live in Malaysia for many times!

They were shocked to see many European fans supporting them! You could tell by their faces that they did not see it coming! The crowd were able to sing along a few songs and they were completely shocked! Their expressions was PRICELESS. You could never see this in Malaysia because Malaysian could never do that. IDK WHY. even if we can, the concert venue is too big, they won't be able to hear us singing. The concert was AMAZING! It was the best out of all that i've been to! Even my friend who's been to their concerts in Korea said the same thing!

Hongki's vocals were PERFECT. Let's not forget bout Jae Jin's vocals, Jong Hoon's and Seung Hyun's guitar solo and Min Hwan's drum solo which i have rarely seen live! All 5 of them contributed equally to this concert! They even changed the set list which is something they rarely do T_T

I got to hear all of my favourite songs! even from their latest album which I LOVE. Hongki also sang Bad Women and Girls Don't Know which is from their old albums which I ALSO LOVE. It was beautiful! I couldn't ask for it to be any better! and when hongki forgot the lyrics to the old songs, it was ADORABLE. Both the fans and FTISLAND made mistakes during the concert and we all laughed it out when it happened, which i find HILARIOUS. I laughed so hard when either one of us made mistakes. xD

I even got to see all 5 of them UP CLOSE outside. and i didn't have to pay for it! LOL. YES, IT WAS DEFINITELY CLOSER THAN THE FAN SIGN EVENT I WENT DURING PLAY CONCERT. Hongki and Jong Hoon literally walked out from the venue and posed for the camera and allowed us to take pictures. it was as if they were telling us to take pictures of them! they posed and posed and posed! and even said okay, LAST PICTURE! before they finished of. SUCH FAN SERVICE! WHAT ELSE COULD I HAVE ASKED FOR? XD

and as if it was meant to be! I was all prepared to go home after the Day 1 concert, then I received a text from a friend saying all trains from Eurostar were cancelled for the day as they found smoke in the tunnel. Usually, I would be REALLY PISSED because I would have to stay for another night in Paris and had nothing to do... BUT it just so happen FTISLAND had a second concert on that night! LOLOL. We were both happy and thankful for the cancellation because that meant we could attend for their 2nd concert! :D

2nd day was equally AMAZING. It was basically like a live band performance in a pub. They were having beer while performing, they even gave out 5 cups of beers to the fans! I swear Jong Hoon had at least 3 cups of beer. LOL. Hongki announced that they were drunk after finishing their first song. They probably already had at least 1 cup per person before the concert. LOL. It was great seeing this side of them! They really missed performing in small pubs like the old days and I was one of the lucky ones that were able to experience that! It was one of those moment when FTISLAND didn't felt like a commercialized band. They were like an indie band ♥

The best part of this concert is that I just called up Eurostar to get a compensation for my hotel and food expenses due to the cancellation of the flight and the delay of the reappointed flight, and they told me they were going to refund me on my train tickets and provide me with a FREE ONE WAY TRIP booking. It's like I'm getting a refund on my expenses, a free one way trip ticket for my next trip and they indirectly paid for my concert tickets since they decided to refund me for my train tickets. WOOTS! FREE CONCERT! I didn't have to pay for anything but my concert tshirt that I bought. Everything else was covered by Eurostar ♥

I even got to meet fans from all over the world. Places I didn't even know existed. LOL. Probably since I suck in geography..... but still! We were all united because of FTISLAND. and that is one hell of an amazing feeling! They might not speak proper english but we shared the same interest! We all loved FTISLAND and were able to communicate well without any awkwardness despite meeting for the first time! I'm usually awkward with people I meet for the first time but it wasn't the case with them! :D

We even sang together in public while queuing. It was a beautiful scene ♥

Overall, it was a whole new experience for me as a fan! I can't believe I got to meet my idol outside of where I live. not in Malaysia, but in PARIS! woots! :D

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Since most of the phone cases i've bought has flaws. I finally took the initiative to design a new phone case for myself! :D

but when my bro took a picture of it.. part of the design was cropped out to fit to the case

sigh. the left side of the headphone on my heart was cropped out. ): But at least the color didn't fade or anything. so i'm still satisfied with it :D

Bro's camera picture quality is really really REALLY bad though -.-

can't wait to receive it when he brings it over!! :D
new phone case to use when i attend FTHX in Paris in 9 more days! WOOTS! :D

THE STRUGGLE

Not sure whether its because of the weather or its just me.
I'VE BEEN EATING LIKE A PIG.
especially late night snacks. i'm out of snacks to fill me up!
MY STOMACH IS NEVER FULL. OTL

and i can't seem to concentrate in my study. I've been watching drama more than studying T_T


THE STRUGGLE!!