2015

Happy 2015!!! 

Lets leave all the bad things in 2014 and go forward for the next 12 months ahead of us!!!!

Thank you.

I wanna thank a friend for personally calling me up inviting me to the party. Although I've already decided not to attend the Christmas Eve Party and ignored all the messages in the group chat, but still, thank you for calling me up! I was kinda shock that you actually called me. Totally wasn't expecting it and i'm still wondering why you called! It's not like we were that close..... hahahahaha. :D

And also, I was shocked from the feedbacks of my pictures from the Dublin - Belfast trip with my new college mates. LOL

First of all, thank you to the 2 friends that was concerned bout my relationship status... LOL. I can't believe that 2 of my friends actually thought that I have a new boyfriend through those pics. There wasn't even any solo pics of both of us.

Main point is that his takennnnnnn. omfg. knowing my personality, I wouldn't even think about having any feelings with a guy that already has a girl friend. It's not my style.. Can't believe she further questioned about my feelings after knowing he was taken. LOL.

We're just friends! And i'll admit, his is one of the normal ones from the bunch of people with weird personalities. But I have no feeeeeeelings on him. I hope his girlfriend doesn't have any thoughts like my friends. xD

If I were to have a boyfriend... I would let my close friends know when its time. No worries guys, you will be the first to know! Probably even before my parents knows bout it. hehe

Snow finally arrived yesterday! Its kinda disappointing that I couldn't enjoy it as much as I thought it would due to the heavy rain.. but oh well, it was nevertheless a good experience! :D

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The power of money is really strong. Money can bring you luxurious and also destroy almost anything depending on how its handled!

I was aware of it but never expected to actually experience such problem in my life, at least not at this stage of my life. Mainly because I like to make it clear when it comes down to money, although I do have a crappy memory that makes me forget things easily. LOL

Sometimes I wonder whether i'm thinking over maturely or are their thoughts childish?
Especially being in the overseas, money becomes way more sensitive. Things should be calculated clearly to avoid misunderstanding which will lead to quarrels -.-

I HATE being stuck in the middle, especially if i'm one of the victim! Did you not thought even for a second that I didn't like what you did?

Coming to UK made me realize that there are WAY more different personalities that I have not seen, typically from a guy. LOL

Although the money problem has been settled but there's gonna be a distance between their friendships, and its all because of how they handled the problem. le sigh. The most annoying part of it is that i'll have to meet BOTH of them next semester. -_-

Disappointing

4 days trip with new college mates was disappointing.
Went there with 12 people and ended up going on a trip with 4-6 people.

This proves that people with different personalities don't go together.
I really hate people misunderstanding me and i can feel the negative vibe from some of them.

I hope he doesn't talk about it with me tomorrow. Weird enough for him to call me out for lunch alone. I really don't want to talk about the trip anymore unless its about happy moments of course.

If they were to really misunderstand me, there's nothing much I can do.
Ignore and go on with life! :D

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This would have nvr happened at the first place if you didn't start the problem.

Irresponsible people that tries to fix the problem. too late.

Productive Weekend! :D

Finally had one hell of a productive weekend in a healthy way :D
After so long, i've finally had a chance to have a proper session of basketball T_T

i've never thought I would wear long sleeves and pants for a bball session. its a #onlyinuk type of thing. HAHAHAHA.

And I made another trip down to Leamington Spa for my last session of Lantern Workshop as a volunteer yesterday!

Problem is i've wasted my weekend on playing, when will I be able to finish my my research proposal which is due on wednesday T_T

I want to submit it ASAP and enjoy my HOLIDAYYYYYYYY. holiday mood is officially ON. :D

TRAVEL TRAVEL TRAVEL. :D

and I miss the sea SO BAD right now T_T

Le poor white myvi accident again. Just after it got fixed from my previous accident. It's a bad year for me and my car. le sigh T_T

But bcause of that i've finally had a chance to see my KIKI on screen after 3 months! she's still fat like a big fat ball of fur. hahahaha. :D

And why is everyone so curious bout my past relationship. especially those that have nvr been in a relationship before. Didn't anyone teach you not to talk about the past? especially a relationship that didn't last forever? LOL.
Although i'm totally OK to talk about it. But it always feels weird having the need to talk about it. Especially when i've just met these bunch of people for like 3 months?

such a random post with a bit of everything that happened last weekend. :D

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I've come to realize that people like pouring their secrets to me.

Even with people i've just met. But why? 

I'm learning about myself everyday. LOL! Apparently I don't look approachable when people first see me. But isn't that how all introverts look or feel like? ._.

And when people get to know be better, they tend to pour out their secrets to me. Not like its something big but I wouldn't share my secrets to someone i've just met for less than a month. Sometimes not even if we've met for years xD

I guess that's just how extrovert's are. xD Either way, i'm glad that i've met good people in UK. At least for now I think their good. They are a bunch of people that I can get comfortable with! 

I've been doing lots of stuff I normally don't do in Malaysia. And tbh if it wasn't that boring here, I probably still wouldn't attend so often. hahaha

Yesterday though, was enjoyable! To the extend where I'm close to losing my voice. LOL. It was ridiculously hyper yesterday for stupid reasons xD

Couple of my friends and family back in Malaysia have been worried bout me hanging out with a bunch of boys that i've just met which is understandable. But I'm fine, if I really hint something bad, I'll back off immediately! :)

And to the person that randomly pop's up on my whatsapp once in a blue moon and all of the sudden worries bout my health. Thank you and don't worry. I'll take care of myself! 

I really hope you find someone right for you and make ur parents proud! No pressure! :)

 I don't even know why i'm typing it here knowing these people wouldn't even read it. HAHA.

Life Lessons

I've come to learn a lot about life for the past few days but yet to understand the true meaning of friendship.

Friendship can be tested easily in many different ways and its up to one and another to adjust and adapt to maintain that friendship. ;)

Which is why i always leave a gap between my friendship, to be in the safe zone and provide myself space to improvise. :)

I've also reconfirmed myself that I can never be with someone that is too tacky! I love having a "zone" where I can be alone!
And I always appreciate people who respects my "zone" and back off when I need them too!
It's not always about being there for a the person anytime, its about being there for them when they NEED you to. :)

Is it really fate?

A lot has been telling me but i refused to believe it until my mom put down the same statement. It really made me question myself.

I've heard that I have some sort of fate in meeting with lots of guy. Apparently it seems that i'm always seen surrounded with guys.

It never really felt that way tbh. I'm just much more comfortable hanging out with guys compared to girls because most of the time, they are less complicated to deal with. Girls tends to create lots of unnecessary issues. YES. i too do that sometimes. ._.

But A LOT of my friends think that I have some sort of fate with guys. Apparently its so obvious that my even my mom felt it. ._______.

I was shocked when she told me that. I literally just shut up for like 10 sec and thought about it. LOL.

And she followed with the boyfriend question. If i really do have some fate with guys, it basically means that i'm always being friend zone, or I have a bad personality, or i'm naturally rejecting guys with my personality without even knowing, etc.............

Do I really have fate with guy? Do I really have lots of guy friends? ._.
I've seen many others with much more guy friends than I have though............. -.-

A New Beginning

Officially living life in UK! Not sure whether I love it at the moment but its manageable! :)

Its definitely less stress studying in UK compared to Malaysia. We're only allowed to take 3-4 subjects per semester not like in Malaysia it was compulsory to pick 6 subjects per semester. But then again, i realize we learn much more in Malaysia compared to UK although some of them might be unnecessary in the future. xD

Finally have the taste of my final year project and omg its scaaaary. I still can't believe that i'll need to vomit out 7k of words that are proven in research. .________.

There are tons of china people in my class. Not that i hate them or anything. Its just me being me with crappy chinese skills. xD

Met a malaysian and he asked me why didn't I study in UWE instead since most of my friends would be there. Its actually a great question. It's really hard for me to get to know new friends since i'm an introvert but than again, i always find myself making decisions like these. I would prefer to have to meet new friends in a new environment instead of sticking to the same people especially if I don't like the environment. hahaha. YES. I do not fancy the environment in Taylors so I suppose it would be similar in UWE.

And me being an introvert, I sometimes LOVE spending time ALONE although people might think im weird or not friendly or etccccccccc. There are times when I would love to hang around with friends but there are also times where I like to be alone. Its just fun not needing to talk or wait or walk with others. I can control everything without having to let other know or concerning bout what others might think :D

I won't say i've met any new true friends atm, but there are some hi and bye friends which hopefully would turn into my true friends over the semester. :D

Gonna be volunteering for a cricket event tomorrow and im hoping its gonna be fun! ;D

Review: Blink Pets' Bakery Pupcake and Cheesecakes

To repay my 4 dogs for what that's gonna happen on the next 13 days which will last for the whole year after.....
I've decided to treat them extra special this year for their bdays because they obviously deserves better than what they have been receiving :)

I'm just happy that each of them at least took a bite.
Though it was disappointing to see KiKi not favoring it, but oh well, she resembles me so who cares! We're picky with our food <3 :d="" br="" cute="" find="" i="" it="">
The other 3 enjoyed it and it actually smelled pretty good :)
And i realized all 4 of them were afraid of fire ngehehehehehe.

Taking pictures was the hard part.
I SALUTE TO THOSE THAT COULD KEEP THEIR DOGS CLOSE TO THE FOOD AND MAKE THEM STAY THEN GET THE CAMERA AND SNAP PICTURES.

You guys ROCK! *hands down*

Island Get Away

Just realize i haven blogged about my recent gate away!
After years of planning, we finally succeeded going on an actual trip!
Although it wasn't a full attendance, but most of us went. :)

It's was a rather relaxing trip and i completely fell in love with the sea.
The underwater was beautiful and to actually experience going deep down the sea made the trip even more memorable!
I never thought I would swim without a life jacket but I did! mission accomplish!
There's only 1 thing i hate, i have cuts on EVERY PART of my legs. -.-
I wanna learn to swim with flippers in order to save my legs T_T

It was a memorable trip and i'm glad i didn't back out on the trip :)
We even met loads of nice people and they were surprised that we could still meet up after so many years.
Well, it was almost impossible but we did it! rofl xD

Hopefully we'll one day be able to plan a trip with FULL ATTENDANCE <3>

#FOUREVER

4 business student decided to test their creativity and turns out we are not bad :D
well at least we're equally satisfied with our creations and that's what matters!
my weekend was well spent i guess. At first i thought it was a bad idea but looking at the finish products makes everything change. hehehe
this project kinda triggered the creativity side of me xD

can't believe it took us almost an hour to come up with this xD

took us even longer to decorate the whole shoe xD

well i took the longest due to my sort of shitty drawing skills. bahahahaha

the fact that i actually sketched a skull free hand is amazing. i'm so proud of myself. :_)

its another memory that is worth remembering!

anyone with experience on fabric paint and sharpie fabric pens, do let me know whether they bleed when contact with water. =/

thank you very much :D

Front

Outside view

Inside view

Overall :)

le signature as a credit for my creativity :)

FINALS vs ME: Day 4

there's only 1 word for today's paper, AWESOME!
finally for at least ONCE, there is a paper i actually knew how to answer all the questions T_T
unfortunately, it wasn't a major in my course, Human Resource Management. Did I picked the wrong major? LOL.

Despite having confidence in the exam paper, i don't know my coursework marks -.-
so yeah, its still a 50/50 chances of scoring an A for this paper.

4 DOWN AND 1 TO GO! LAST PAPER AND IM FREE FROM STUDIES TILL SEPTEMBER!! :D


Current Score: 3-3

FINALS vs ME: Day 3

Finally passed the deadly paper!! :D
i would say it was a tie bcause i knew how to answer 3 out of 4 questions
But whether or not the format of how i answered is correct place a big question. ._.

I should be able to pass the paper since i only need the minimum 20 marks to pass the whole module. ._.
Hope for the best and back to studying for my next paper -.-


Current Score: 3-2

FINALS vs ME: Day 2

Today's paper was oooookaaayy. At least better than i expected.
His tips were quite accurate except for one chapter where he focused on 1 part during lectures and tutorials and also gave us additional notes and ended up coming out a completely different question that i completely ignored. 10 marks gone right there.

But overall it wasn't bad, and when i compared with a few of my friends, we all made the same mistake and had no clue how to do the same questions. LOL

I love how we never call each other on normal days and the phone keeps ringing before to teach each other questions that we don't understand and after the paper just to discuss on whether we did well on our paper. I think i spent almost 30mins talking on the phone while driving today only talking bout the paper. LOL

I STAYED UP TILL 3AM FOR THIS PAPER AND STUDIED LIKE HELL and the paper came out easier than i expected. I felt like i wasted my time preparing so much for this paper. -.-

But yeah, tmrw is the deadly paper, BANKING LAW.

God bless myself and i shall not fail my law paper AGAIN.


Current Score: 2 - 1

FINALS vs ME: Day 1

As of today's paper, the Investment Management paper..
I have drastically lost to the paper.
I just pray i earned enough to pass the paper. If i get better results. AMEN TO THAT!

Now to prepare the dumbest paper of all in less than half a day.

Current Score: 1-0

Comeback!

after neglecting my blog for 4 months. finally back!
a friend of mine which will not be named recently found out bout my past and keeps on digging it back up.

I'm confidence enough to say that my relationship with my ex won't be as awkward as before since its been years and its in the past. We've both matured, like duhhhh. But this friend of mine keeps questioning our current relationship worrying that we are still in the awkward zone. -.-

Its almost impossible for us to stay awkward since i'm pretty sure i'll be seeing him often in the future. Yes, maybe not that often now, but in the future since we have mutual friends and they're all really close with him. So UNDERSTAND THAT I AM NOT AVOIDING HIM. If my friends were to invite him out on an outing / event that I happen to attend, so be it. You can't expect us to be chatting 24/7 since both of us haven't met for years after the break up. Yes, i mean years. At least we both understand that awkwardness wouldn't bring any good to us in the future.

We chat, we said bye and hugged as a friend during our last meet up. that's a big improvement. :D
We might not be as natural like we used to, but yeah.. its part of the process xD
So for those who worries that he broke my heart and thinks that his a bad guy years ago and I should hate him for the rest of my life..........
I personally don't think so? We were just young and innocent i must say?
Some even thought that I refuse to get into a new relationship because i'm still stuck in the past.
Well that's a BIG NO. I don't think i would ever turn into that way for a guy.
Its just that I haven't found the right guy. My personality might also be the problem, the way i treat my friends and my bf differs.

So yes, if any of you are reading this and thought that way, I know ALOT of you guys do.......
You're obviously wrong. my wound has healed completely and i've moved on! As for when i'm gonna get back to dating..... i'll leave that to faith. :)

Getaway!

Finally a getaway tomorrow!
Although its with my family but since i'm the only kid that's going, i'll be able to enjoy :)
There's a beach and a pool, that's basically all i need.

Hopefully it will be a good getaway before college starts. :)
I can leave without worrying bout my shop stuff. YAY!

Mood Swings

Sigh, mood swing strikes again /_\

If only I was an extrovert.

If only I am those who can express my feelings to every stranger I see.

FK those mood swings. -_-

HTC ONE CASING FAMILY? ;D

The 2 cases I ordered before CNY finally arrived yesterday!

I had to call ABX for DAYS and finally got them to send it to me

at night during i think 10:30pm? LOL

But it was worth it, the cases were GORGEOUS and i LOVE THEM ;D

I do have some serious problem with phone cases, i spend too much

on them, but what to do? they are collectibles and absolutely ADORABLE ;D

I do not plan to change my phone anyways, so why not spoil it with cute outfits?

my first doll case and i'm so happy with it <3>

meow? ngehehehe

all 11 of my cases are stored in there. :D

Expect the unexpected.

I've recently met a guy and he shall not be named.
As usual, we introduced each other and started chatting, he was really straight forward, he admitted that he liked me and wanted to meet up with me.
but because i had no car, it was really hard to meet up~ plus, i started working.

there was one day i told him i would be going to further study in UK and he started telling me how hard it would be to to have a relationship with me as it was going to be a long distance relationship, which I completely understand.
but my problem was that we've never met each other before yet he was alrd thinking of starting a relationship with me?............
but as soon as i told him that i would stay there if i ever find a job in UK, that was the last time we spoke. LOL.

He is a good guy and i'm sure we could have be friends but since he sort of gave up on being friends, why would i even bother trying? HAHA.
Its impossible for me to build up any sort of relationship or feel for him if i haven't met him.
so its completely fine.

I expected him to give up on building any love relationship with me since i'm going off to UK but i nvr expected him to completely stop being friends. LOL

I guess its true how guys can never be friends with their ex since they can't even be friends with someone  they had a crush on. -_-
Honestly i thought that he was kinda pathetic, just because u got rejected u completely stop chatting? its so ridiculous i can't even.. LOL

Thank god it was impossible for me to build up any feelings for him. xD

Superstitious?

Finally took the initiative to wake up early today to go to the temple today!

And i came to know something surprising. LOL

According to the person, i'll be married off overseas.

She told my mom to be prepare to get on an air plane for my wedding.

Guess my friends and family would have to save a whole lot to attend my wedding. haha xD

I shall leave my love life to fate. I'll only think about it when the time comes. :)

Till then, i shall enjoy being single! woots! xD

Accuracy.

Happy Chinese New Year ended today for me!
no more visiting after tomorrow and back to enjoying my holiday.

after thinking for WEEKS. I made a decision to attend my friends bday party since every one of them insisted me to come :)
thankfully i reached there when they were almost done swimming since i didn't plan to swim and I couldn't -.-
Bday boy eventually invited someone that i find being awkward with, well not so much compared to before,
but yeah that awkwardness will nvr disappear since almost everyone that knows me knows about our awkwardness. HAHA.
Since it wasn't the first time, i got used to her being around, we just wouldn't talk.
I feel much comfortable chatting with the guys. xD

Thankfully the party wasn't as awkward as i thought it would have been.
In fact, i had fun! They are just one of the bunch that I wouldn't feel awkward being around with.
It must be some pixel dust magical curse. xD

Present was one of the biggest problem. At the end of the day, we decided to get him alcohol,
which they eventually insisted me to have a shot before I left.
Didn't want to drink at all since I was driving ALONE but since all 7 of them insisted, there was no way out -.-
Thank god they were thoughtful enough to mix vodka with Sprite. LOLOL

There was 1 thing i couldn't understand though, how the heck did his dad knew my name.
I have never once met his parents before but yet they know my name and how I looked like.
Must all of my friends family know me even when I don't know them?
Makes me feel damn weird okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. I was so shocked when uncle called me, and i had no idea whether he was the father or an uncle? LOLOL.

Though we might not meet up all the time, nor do we share our secrets with each other. 

We still kept our friendship for up to 10 years (i think)! Which was one of the main reason why I decided to attend. :)

I mean what else do you expect from a friendship? At least we wouldn't feel awkward being around each other whenever we gather up. :)

FINALLY BLOG-IN!

finally blog in after 2 months?
been so busy for only god knows what reason. .____________.

still feel really bad for missing 2 of my friends 21st birthday this year.
but that's how it had to be. Nobody including myself expected going to Hong Kong in such short notice ):
And for those who are curious or worried bout why I was in a hospital in HK,
you won't have to worry, I wasn't admitted nor did I went to see the doctor. :)
in fact i think i did told one person the reason why I was in HK because i felt like telling on that particular day xD
But yeah, overall i'm fine and back in Malaysia! :D

Keeping my fingers cross that they won't read my blog, which probably wouldn't since i've never really exposed my link to the world...

I'm still thinking whether or not to attend another friend of mine 21st birthday party. =/
Yes, i know i shouldn't be thinking knowing that he is a friend.
But i'm pretty sure i'll be the only girl among those that i know were invited to attend.
It's gonna be SO AWKWARD OKAYYYYYYY. like ULTRA AWKWARD.
not forgetting that its gonna be a 1/2 pool party. EVEN WEIRD.
GAHHHHHHHHH. If i miss this, it basically means i missed 3 21st party in 2 months.
GOSH. i feel REALLY BAD ):
THIS SHUCKS! -.-

Someone please help me make a decision. .____.

NEW SONG ADDICT!

Just a song i'm currently IN to.

I can't stop replaying it. HAHA

Simple Plan ft Taka (OK ONE ROCK) - Summer Paradise

the lyrics is really good!

With Simple Plan and TAKA's voice, it will never go wrong :D

Lyrics:
O la da da dada
Yeah me and you in summer paradise
My heart is sinking as I’m lifting
Up above the clouds away from you And I can’t believe I’m leaving
Oh I don’t know no no what I’m gonna do
But, someday
I will find my way back to
To where your name is written in the sand
'cause I remember every sunset (I remember)
I remember every word you said
And we were never gonna say goodbye (goodbye)
Singing la da da da
Tell me how to get back to (back to)
Back to summer paradise with you
And I’ll be there in a heartbeat
I’ll be there I’ll be there I’ll be there
I’ll be there in a heartbeat
And I’ll be there I’ll be there I’ll be there
My soul is broken
Streets are frozen
I can’t stop these feelings melting through
And I’d give away a thousand days
Oh, just to have another one with you (with you)
Where real life can wait (real life can wait)
We’re crashing like waves (crashing like waves)
We're playing in the sand (playing in the sand)
Holding your hand
'cause I remember every sunset (I remember)
I remember every word you said
We would never gonna say goodbye (goodbye)
Singing la da da da
Tell me how to get back to (back to)
Back to summer paradise with you
And I’ll be there in a heartbeat
I’ll be there I’ll be there I’ll be there
I’ll be there in a heartbeat
And I’ll be there I’ll be there I’ll be there
My memories are reminding me
The perfect night on the perfect beach
Ano hi no kioku wo kaki atsumeta koto de modoreya shinai
The season's not the reason why
I fell in love with you in paradise
Kimi ga boku wo omoidasu tabi ni
And I’ll be there in a heartbeat
Someday
I will find my way back to
To where your name is written in the sand
'cause I remember every sunset (I remember)
I remember every word you said
We would never gonna say goodbye (goodbye)
Singing la da da dada
Tell me how to get back to (back to)
Back to summer paradise with you
And I’ll be there in a heartbeat
I remember when we first kissed
How I didn’t wanna leave your lips
And how I’ve never ever felt so high (so high)
Singing la da da da
Tell me how to get back to (back to)
Back to summer paradise with you
And I’ll be there in a heartbeat
I’ll be there I’ll be there I’ll be there
And I’ll be there in a heartbeat
And I’ll be there I’ll be there I’ll be there
I’ll be there in a heartbeat