What goes around, comes around.

that phone call has been keeping me distracted for the past few days.
I sincerely hope it's the last call i'll hear from her because it's the ONLY REASON why I kept myself saint enough to not screw her over the phone.

If I get another call from her i'm gonna screw her.
She's been tormenting us mentally for the past 10 years. As if causing a broken family wasn't enough.
Part of me is happy that payback has finally hit her. KARMA worked at it's best.
But part of me wondered WHY THE FUCK would she bother calling? I didn't need her to tell me how fucked up my dad is as a man. I DIDN'T NEED TO KNOW IT THROUGH HER.

And for her to think that she could call and not even SUGGEST to apologize for what she's done is horrible. I HAD TO TELL HER TO APOLOGIZE. like WTF?
You're never gonna be forgiven if that was what you were after. I hope you didn't expect us to show you ANY SYMPATHY, because you're not worth it.

Don't even bother telling me how much you love him. THAT ISN'T LOVE. if you need to crush other ppl's love to fulfill your so call LOVE.. than it's bullshit.

I could have become a very different person as to what I am now.. Not that i'm not proud or happy of how I turned up.. but I could have been better perhaps. So yes, I'll always blame you.

I do not appreciate this fucked up situation he put me in but i'll take it in and learn from it. So whoever that can't understand that should just shut up. Show your concern and SHUT THE FUCK UP. I do not need any advise unless you've been through something VERY SIMILAR / EXACTLY what I've been through.

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I swear my friends make me feel miserable of being single everytime i meet them.
Why do you need to make such a big deal out of it? i'm happy being single. :D
It's not like i'm not dating because I can't move on or somethinggg.
I'M PERFECTLY FINE. I'm just not eagerly seeking for a relationship.
It will come when the time is right. STOP MAKING A BIG DEAL OUT OF IT. :D

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If I get sandwich ONE MORE TIME.
I'M GONNA GIVE EVERYONE A PEACE OF MY MIND
AND DO WHATEVER I WANT AS I SEE FIT.

WTF did I do to deserve this? you adults either GROW UP or both sides gonna get a peace of my mind.
I'm trying very hard to make both sides happy and if none of you are gonna be understanding then fuck it.

Both sides aren't gonna be happy when I make my point. BE AN ADULT AND THINK LIKE AN ADULT. -_-

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People keep asking me how it feels to be home.
Well. home isn't the same anymore. It's much quiet.
Home doesn't feel like home anymore. :'D

Unemployed.

I'm finally a bachelor degree holder! :)

more then being happy that i'm graduating, i'm happy to stop studying!

I will definitely miss my studying days, I alrd do!

I've made a lot of fonded memories throughout both my school and college life.

I have made lots of new friends throughout this journey! Some that I hope and intend to keep in touch with, although there's no guarantee. hahaha.

They've helped me a lot throughout my journey in the UK! 

Cheers mates! :)

It's the end of this chapter of my life. and i'm officially unemployed.

Now i'll have to face questions on my next step which I'm not even sure what it is.

Whatever it is and wherever i'll be, it's once again a new beginning!

Thank you?

so a couple of my friends decided to give me so "so call" early surprise birthday celebration since most of us won't be around during the actual day.

But since I alrd knew and couldn't do much about it. I had to go with the flow.

Didn't really felt like celebrating my birthday this year mainly bcause of Kiki's passing.

I usually celebrate my birthday and go home thinking her birthday is in 3 days and we cuddle when I come home. 

But oh well. I don't expect anyone to understand this especially them since we barely known each other. I still appreciate the effort they made though. :)

The only thing I didn't really like was that they.. or should I said he paid for dinner. ):

I know how expensive korean cuisines are in UK and I sort of looked at the price while we were ordering although I can't remember exactly how much it was.. but i'm pretty sure it came up to be around at least 30 pounds for just the meat dishes we ate. Not inclusive of the vegetarian dish my friend called.

IT'S TOO MUCH. I would have let it go if there were a few more that chipped in and share the bill since that's what friends normally do during birthday celebrations. But there was only 2 that shared the bill and one of them basically paid mostly for his own dishes. In addition to that, you guys got me cupcakes and a toy. WHY?):

Now I feel so bad bcause I won't be around when it's his birthday so I can't treat him and I didn't even attend the birthday celebration for the other friend. I don't deserve this. ._____.

And the both of you always treat me stuff........ although you guys always say it's not much. BUT STILL. ):

We are all students in UK so I know how hard it is to save $$ in UK. sighhhhhhhh.

I will definitely find a way to repay them.

So thank you for the little celebration and thank you for not making it too big of a deal although I know it wasn't planned that way. :D

 

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Why is everyone so sensitive today? ._.
It was just a status.
People think i'm not fine when i'm absolutely fine. ._.
Now i'm confused whether or not i'm fine. LOL.

I hate when people think i'm sensitive and apologizes for nothing.
There was no need for an apology. I would have went myself if I wanted to.
Nobody makes decisions for me unless i ask for it. so chill out people. I'm fine :D