Stupidity.

You can't come and look for me once in awhile and expect me to tell you I miss you and then get mad when I tell you the truth. -.-

I do appreciate your concerns, but c'mon.. how the heck do you expect me to miss you when we only chat once in awhile?

I was just being honest and I do not apologize to that. :)

Superstitious

I'm not always superstitious. but at times like these, I prefer to be superstitious. :)
I dreamt of Kiki during my trip in Blackpool ♥
I would like to believe that her soul is in peace. :_)

It was a short dream but it meant a lot.
Thanks for visiting me in my dream baby! ♥

Excitement?

i'll be back home soon but i'm not even excited to get home anymore. ):

.

The fact that I can only see her through pictures now is painful T_T
knowing that i'll never see her when I get back home...

My phone is full of pictures of her and myself.
I'll get to scroll through my instagram and phone gallery whenever i miss her
Looking at others playing with their dogs just makes me sad.
It makes me think of the memories we shared.

Yes, i'm still not over her and I don't think I can see dogs the same way I used to.
I MISS HER. no matter what and how people think of me doesn't really matter.

WHY MUST I THINK OF HER NOWWWWW. DURING MY TRIP. OTL

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28.05.2015

Thank you to everyone that was concerned.
I usually try really hard to not show it but this time was an exception. I just couldn't.

To those who realized and were concerned asked whether I was okay.
Well, truthfully. I'm not. She was more than a dog to me, she was my family, my best friend, my one and only.

She will always be remembered, she's going to be in my heart for the rest of my life.
Some who doesn't understand would think that i'm making a big deal over a dog, but those who understood got it the minute i mentioned her name. I didn't need to explain, her name just needed to be mentioned.

This made me realize how much a person understands me.
For those who i've met here in the UK, despite us knowing each other for less than a year, they showed concern and for that, i'm grateful. I'm really sorry for avoiding you guys today but I needed a moment, a moment alone to grieve.

For those back in Malaysia, whether or not you were close with Kiki, or you've just seen her through pictures I posted, thanks for the concern.


To Kiki,

I'm glad to know that you left peacefully and I'm sorry for not being able to be there for you during your last moment. You left me with lots of good memories that I would cherish for the rest of my life.

I still can't believe that i'll come home not being able to see you greet me. Home wouldn't be the same without you.

I might have lose a beautiful soul today but heaven has gain an angel. If faith has it, we will meet again.

I love you baby. ♥ 

Thank you.

Thank you for being there for me for the past 10 years of my life
And sorry for not being there till the very last moment.

My soulmate, my twin, you're at a better place. RIP ♥ 

Uni Life??

most of my results were released today and honestly speaking... i'm damn disappointed with it ):

Surprisingly, my parents aren't too disappointed about it this time.

I was expecting a higher grade for my finance paper... I believed it would have raised my overall grade. 

Although I managed to maintain at the Second Upper class grade that I targeted but still, its disappointing. I guess my first instinct is always right! Didn't have a good feeling after completing that paper anyways. My mind literally went blank during the paper ):

As long as I don't fail my last paper, I'M OFFICIALLY DONE WITH UNIVERSITY LIFE.

I FKING HATE 100% WRITTEN REPORTS. they freaking down graded my overall percentage ):

Since my parents are OKAY with my results, i'll just accept it and move on. 

It's been days and still no good news on Kiki. ):

Things have been pretty bad lately. I NEED SOME POSITIVE NEWS IN MY LIFE.